Earlier this year, I made a tough decision to end a relationship. It was tough but I knew it was a decision that was in my best interest. I decided that it was time for me to let go of an unhealthy relationship that I had been in and out of for years. So, in July 2016, I boldly and confidently closed the door on that relationship. Although I experienced the normal painful emotions associated with ending a relationship, I felt such a sense of peace and FREEDOM when I finally made the decision to do what was best for me.
Well, it’s November now…and I have become entangled in that same relationship again. I know! I know! I’m shaking my head at myself. I was doing so well. I was going to counseling. I had accountability partners in place. I was checking all the right boxes. But here I am again, locked up in chains…struggling in the same area…falling prey to the same scheme of the enemy. And all the while…my soul is crying out for FREEDOM.
This man is familiar to me. So, my flesh wants to hold onto him. My flesh wants to continue to believe that things will work out. My flesh wants to live in the land of fantasies, love conquers all, and happily ever after’s. On the other hand, the Holy Spirit is nudging me and constantly reminding me:
- You are on different pages. You don’t want the same thing.
- You’ve been putting too much energy into him.
- He’s not healthy for you. You’ve stopped taking care of yourself.
- You’re losing sight of yourself again.
The war waging within me is real!! The flesh and spirit man have been battling. And all the while…my soul is crying out for FREEDOM. My soul is crying out…set me free!! Choose me over him! Love me more than you love him! Set me free!
Listen! And I’m talking to myself as much as I’m talking to you! God has already given us the key to unlock the chains of bondage. When Jesus Christ died on the cross for our sins, He gave us victory over sin and any tactics or schemes that Satan may use to try to keep us in bondage. Why then are we still locked up in chains? Why do we continue to struggle in the same areas? Why do we continue to fall prey to the same schemes over and over again? Why?? Let me tell you why!
I have come to realize that we keep ourselves locked up in bondage. We either forget that we have the key to unlock the chains or we have become comfortable in that place of bondage. Or better yet, we refuse or are reluctant to do the soul work necessary to walk in FREEDOM because we don’t want to deal with the pain. The truth is that slowly, but surely…I locked myself back up in the chains of that unhealthy relationship because he is familiar to me. Even though we weren’t going in the same direction, I would rather be with him than be alone. Are you feeling me? My flesh wants to stay in that place but who I am at the core won’t allow me to stay!! The warrior in me is crying out for FREEDOM! And she won’t allow me to stay in this place!
I’m writing to tell you that I’m fighting for my FREEDOM!! I’m making a conscious choice today to set myself free!! I am choosing FREEDOM! I refuse to let fear of the future keep me locked up in chains. I’m fighting! I’m refocusing and I’m going to do the work necessary to be and stay free. What about you? Will you embark on this journey with me to be free? If so, I challenge you to stop what you’re doing, find a mirror, and tell yourself “If you love me, set ME free!”
After that, I want you to begin to think about what FREEDOM means to you. Do you need to do soul work (i.e. / daily affirmations, counseling, etc.) to redefine how you see yourself? Do you need to take steps to remove yourself from an unhealthy relationship? Do you need to be healthy physically? Love yourself enough to take out some time to develop a plan to move toward FREEDOM. And remember, we already have the key. John 8:36 says “if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed!” Don’t let anything or anyone (including yourself) keep you locked up in chains. I’m fighting for my FREEDOM! Are you ready and willing to do the same??
~ The Warrior Princess